miami was great. i needed the break from my life in north carolina and the escape to sunny miami. i thoroughly enjoyed myself and had a great time relaxing... look at the pictures!
let's see... had the IVP done and they didn't find a stone afterall. so either i passed it a couple of weeks ago or i never had one to start with. my doctor now wants to send me to a urologist, but i don't think i'm going to do that. it just seems like i'm spending a lot of money lately on doctors who essentially tell me that nothing is wrong with me. maybe i should go to a shrink, eh? ;-)
i've enjoyed getting things done around my house, still. the lists are growing and i'm slowly getting things accomplished. this past weekend it was rearranging the living room. i'm having a time of it trying to make the house feel like me. that probably sounds weird, but the furniture i have isn't mine and there's very little on the walls and otherwise that make it feel like home. so i'm working on changing that and creating a different energy in my personal space.
work is good... slow. i should probably take advantage of the time and continue to work with PHP and learn all that i can. i'm slowly getting back into the swing of things.. the way it was at the beginning of my web development days when i couldn't get enough of this stuff. where did that enthusiasm go? my best guess is that it took a backseat to my personal life changes that have been taking place for the past 4-5 years.
speaking of which, things with jon are still not great. we still see each other from time to time, but he's in the middle of trying to figure out what he wants and if he can be what i need him to be if we are in a relationship together. i'm starting to believe that it's just not going to happen... so the past month or two have been spent feeling less and less optimistic about 'jdi' working out. i never really imagined it would come to this, and to some extent i still have a hard time believing that we may not end up together. my current philosophy is to take things as they come, and to just be present for whatever is happening. i've been making choices that feel right for me at any given moment, so hopefully i can continue to listen to my gut and trust that my instincts won't lead me down the wrong path.
life is difficult... and things change all the time..... so the only constant is change, and the only way to have a life is to go out there and live it.
